I was reminiscing during the little girl’s nap today and stumbled across this post from last summer. It’s not a memory that comes to mind often, so I’m really glad that I wrote it down. I don’t ever want to forget it.

My emotions have been living especially close to the surface lately, and rereading that post this afternoon pretty much made me melt. All of those emotions came flooding back.

I went in to check on Juliana after reading it, and she was sitting up in her crib smiling sleepily at her “meow.” She turned and looked up at me and immediately reached up to be held. She accepted my kiss (which she’s been starting to scold me for (“No!”)) and then really let one rip. We both giggled and she informed me that she wanted to sit on the “pah-ee.”

I did my funny little run to the potty with her in my arms. She was still showing off that charming little sleepy smile. I set her down to do her business and I could feel my love for her radiating out of me. I realized I had that big, stupid grin on my face.

Then out of the blue, she touched my nose. “Nossse.” Then she pointed at my eyes. “Eyesss.”

And then she looked right into my eyes and, with the sweetest little smile, cheerfully said “Hi!”

I couldn’t contain the giggles and I could feel my eyes starting to water.

I told her I loved her and she tried to repeat it.

There are just no words to describe how much I love that girl. No amount of “I love you’s,” hugs, or kisses will ever be enough.

never want to forget this feeling.



I’ve been busy, busy, busy since my last post. There’s been a lot to do outside lately, both work and fun. Friends finally started moving back home for the summer or for the near future (a downside to being the first in the friend group to graduate was that I was pretty much home alone all year). I’ve had lots of busy days with all my kiddos.

So I’m enjoying this beautiful (? the weather can’t decide) day alone at home. I get to recover/regroup a little bit and watch my second favorite sport: tennis. (Obviously football takes the top spot.)

And because it’s the first post of the month, here ya go:

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This is, without a doubt, one of my favorite pages of the calendar. Because of recent events, I might even say it is my favorite.

Not only is Father’s Day this month, but it’s also his birthday. In this family, June is pretty much dedicated to my dad. This should be a good month for Juliana, because he’s pretty much her favorite person.

One of the clearest words that comes out of J’s mouth these days is “papa!” She LOVES her papa! Whenever he’s home, she wants to be with him, or at least keep a close eye on him.

She used to call both of my parents “gaga,” but I kept working with her on at least saying “gapa.” Then one day, she just started calling him papa. And she hasn’t stopped.

She’s usually up in her room when we go pick her up in the morning, and as soon as we close the front door, we can hear the “papa” chant starting. Eventually it turns into a scream and she just erupts into giggles when she sees him! It’s the cutest thing ever.

And he just adores her. He’s always a bit leary about watching her all by himself, but he’s so obviously proud when he makes it through a day with no help.

It’s no secret to everyone that really knows him that he’s an emotional guy. He really can’t hide his emotions when it comes to his little girls (me and J). His smiles are often accompanied by wet eyes when they are directed at that little girl.

They are both such goofballs! He is definitely influencing that side of her. My mom and I sometimes think he takes it too far, but J loves it every time. He can turn her crying into giggles faster than anyone.

One of her new tricks is pointing out his “toys” in the barn. She’s now old enough to have seen him use pretty much all of them, so she knows what she’s talking about! And every time she hears a lawn mower, she says “papa mow!”

They are my favorite people in the world, so I love watching their relationship grow!

Next month is all about J’s first July in January!

Hopefully I’ll have some time to post more this month, but if not Happy June!

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