Well, I didn’t exactly follow through with the plan I laid out in the last post…
I sat with it all day and it just didn’t feel realistic. It didn’t feel like it had any chance of really sticking. I realized that I was trying to copy other peoples’ routines instead of creating my own.
The truth is, I already had a pretty great morning routine. Could it use a few tweaks? A few improvements? Sure, but I already had a great foundation.
I decided that waking up insanely early (relatively) every day wasn’t realistic for me. I’ve always wanted to be a morning person, but I’m just not and I need to accept that and figure out how to make it work for me. So I decided to focus on the routine itself, not the timing.
All I really added was yoga. I significantly decreased my phone time and added a short session of yoga before reading my devotionals. I didn’t think it would be as challenging as it was and I didn’t think I’d come to love it so fast. Toward the end of the week, I started noticing physical symptoms of anxiety and I still pushed through with a lighter session of yoga. I could’ve used that as an excuse, but I didn’t want to! I found that the focus on breathing really helped me control my anxiety in other settings throughout the day as well. Added bonus!
This weekend, after watching Made for More, I started thinking about the idea of having a list of goals, or truths as I called them, that I could write every day. They sink in faster if I have to physically write them every day and makes it more likely that I’ll accomplish them.
I was pretty much instantly inspired. I just started writing a list of truths I wish I believed about myself, things that I wish I could confidently tell the world. There just happened to be 10. The next step was singling out one to focus on immediately. I chose: I eat well. It seemed like a small enough goal to start with that could make a huge difference in the long run. I figured out what steps I could take to start on that journey and I am now starting to work on cutting out evening snacks. That’s it. That’s my main goal right now. If I can focus on one small step at a time, it makes it more manageable, more doable, more realistic.
That’s not to say that I’m not more mindful in general of what I’m putting in my mouth. I definitely am. I’ve been keeping track of why I want to eat. If I’m not hungry, I just say no. I want to prove to myself, once again, that I can do this. I can control myself.
This weekend I also started to take a deeper dive into examining every aspect of my life and acknowledging where there was room for improvement. This is a big job, so I don’t feel anywhere near done, but it felt important to start.
I’m heading back to kid duty tomorrow, so it’ll be interesting to see how things progress with that factor added back into the mix.
I have to say, it does feel kind of empowering to take back control!